1 Year

It's crazy to think how much my life has changed in a year. To think of everything I have been through blows my mind and almost doesn't seem real. A year ago today I started dating my son's father. I don't quite know how to feel about this. I want to be happy because this last year has kicked my butt and made me stronger but I want to almost to grieve the lost of the relationship and friendship. I'm going to just live today as make new memories from now on. I have decided on instead of hseeing places or things we did and being sad that I will take the memory in and then make a new one there. I have my son and a new family, I'm a better person now.

Love , T

"Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy."
- Leo Buscaglia

2 Months

Wow! Time seriously flies! My little man turned 2 months old yesterday. I can’t believe that it has been this long; I know it’s not forever but I have come so far for 2 months. I have had my good days and bad ones but I always know that there is tomorrow. I have started work up again, started working out, have had tons of family come to visit and a cousin come home from his mission. I am rarely home anymore!! So since my chubbester turned a month I have had some fun times. I have gone to a Indian festival , spent a weekend at my girlfriend’s apartment with her roommates, seen movies, gone to sushi many times (I have a lot of time to make up for, ha) I have gone shooting, and have worked like crazy!!! I’m starting school soon and I am so excited. I have been hanging gout with a birth mom friend a lot and sometimes I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have her in my life. We spend a lot of time together and I love it! I was asked to be a part of a project with an adoptive mom who is a photographer.  She is having 10 birth moms and 10 adoptive families get photographed and videotaped. After she is going to make a video, to teach people about adoption. I am so excited and honored to have been asked to be apart and to help with this. My life has been so good lately and I can’t wait for the next year. I have a feeling that this summer is going to be good!!!

Love T

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t so than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

-Mark Twain

Snow Days

I love when it snows; something about it is so beautiful. Its perfect weather to write and listen to some good music. Yesterday, after a month, got to see my little guy. He is so BIG!! I couldn’t believe it!! It was also my little sisters first time meeting him. We ran around before, setting up for a party we had going on later in the night. I was so excited to see my little guy and his family. The day seemed to go on forever until I was at their house. We took lots of pictures, even got him in a St. Patrick’s Day outfit that we got earlier. My little sister gave them her little pilot outfit she got for him, its so cute!! My grandpa and his wife stopped by to meet the baby and his family as well as an aunt and uncle. After everyone left, my mom and aunt left to leave my sister and I. I made a promise to my sister that she would get her own time with him when she met him. We had such a good time holding him and taking pictures. She kept telling me how it was so strange that he was my son and that I was an “old mom”. Haha my mom and aunt came back and took just a few more pictures and we said our goodbyes and left. I spent that night with a lot of my family, celebrating March birthdays. It was so nice to see my family and spend the night having fun with everyone. When I am with family it is almost therapeutic for me. I am blessed for the amazing people I have in my life. I can only do what I can to show them how much I appreciate the little things they do for me, because they are such a big thing in my eyes. My family and my family of friends mean everything to me. You can never show them too much of how you love them and are thankful for them.

Love ,T



Our most basic instinct is not for survival but for family. Most of us would give our own life for the survival of a family member, yet we lead our daily life too often as if we take our family for granted. ~Paul Pearshall

From Gods Arms To My Arms To Yours

I was given a Cd from my aunt while I stayed at her house. It's called From Gods Arms To My Arms To Your Arms by Michael McLean. The book is amazing and there is such truth to the lyrics. There is a song from an adoptive couples view, a birth mom and an adopted child's view. It is a tender a cd. I cry everyone I listen to From Gods Arms To my Arms To Yours. It's so raw and emotional and has so much meaning and truth to me. Take a listen to it.
Love, T

A Day In My Childhood

The other day I went to the town I grew up in to go see some of my family. It is always so crazy to go back and drive around and remember all the memories. I went to my elementary school and picked up my cousin to take her on a lunch date. we went a park that was right next to the school. It felt so strange to be there because I did girls scouts at this park and would come and play here. It was fun to play with her at the park and make new memories. I went to grandparents after, it was and always is so fun to go to their house. My grandparents have been in this house since my dad was a kid. I loved growing up down the street, they had the best place to grow up. They have a huge amount of land that was filled with trees, had a pond that went all over the place,a garden,a pool, a volleyball court and even a back house. Now they have 5 houses around theirs and that back house is now a gym/spa area. I watched my cousins swim and thought of how lucky I was for the family I have and all of the fun memories I had at this house and the memories my little cousins make here. I got to spend time with my grandma and catch up with her. I'm blessed to have this amazing family who has supported me and love me. I love the knowledge that they give me and how they listen and help me with my problem and give me amazing advice. This trip down has been exactly what I needed. I got to see my family and a lot of my extended and to be able to share my feelings, have my moments of sadness and emotions with them. I have taught them as they have taught me over the last month. I am sad to leave and go home BUT very excited to start this new chapter in my life with the new me and my new, bigger family. Life is good and where it should be. I may have hard times or sad times but there is always tomorrow. Satan may tempt me and I'm sure he is going to try his hardest but this time im determined to beat him.
Love,T

You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them.
- Desmond Tutu

Adoption Creed

Today i was on Pinterest, Oh SOO addictting!! I searched adoption and saw this. Its called The Adoption Creed. I think it is so beautiful and i thought i would share it.
Love, T
http://www.etsy.com/listing/56649476/adoption-creed-wall-decal-lettering-art?ref=sr_gallery_1&ga_search_submit=&ga_search_query=adoption+creed&ga_search_type=handmade&ga_facet=handmade

A Gift From God-A Birth Mothers Voice

Hey check out my friends blog about being a birth mom. She is one of the amazing woman in my life who helped me when i was pregnant. She taught me to be strong and what to expect. She is an example to me and love her and adore her.
Love, T
http://mygiftfromgod-abirthmothersvoice.blogspot.com/